 #1 (permalink) Sat Jun 25, 2011 14:22 pm Psychedelic experience |
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Profound silence, twisted ideas .. the place where my last trip occur.
At the beginning it was unreal,magical and mysterious I thought I am dreaming.
Let's start from the very beginning, it was just one ordinary day, I get up early in the morning preparing breakfast and cup of tea, reading newspapers and assuming what should I do today. Just to mention it was holiday for me,no studies, no job, whole day only for myself.
While I was reading newspaper I noticed an interesting article about an old man who has an insomnia for whole life, just imagine next thing, you can't sleep for the whole life, to be more precise 49 years of insomnia for him. Hmm firstly I thought it can be very beneficial, especially when studying or working, but than again we would miss one of the best thing in life, dreams.
Besides that interesting article the rest was about politics, famous people scandals etc, not so impressing, I must admit I finished reading newspaper very fast. I enjoyed my breakfast, cup of tea and relaxing on my couch while listening my favorite music. The next few moments will be the moments that changed my day, that have changed my life. Someone were knocking on my door, argh how much I hate that sound especially in the moments like this. I was thinking for a minute should I check who it is, or should I pretend that there is no one in the room.
I decide to check who's knocking, and if I made an other decision I would regret even now. It was one of my friends behind the door, he was smiling I could see a large dose of happiness and enthusiasm in his eyes, I knew he's hiding something. So without hesitation I said , spit it out, you have already destroyed my 'one per year free-day'.
He was waving with mushrooms in front of my eyes, to be honest firstly I was confused, then angry , what the hell I thought it was some bad joke , Instantly I asked what do you want with these mushrooms? And ironic I said but never mind your humor is getting just better and better.
Now the happiness in his eyes was even more obvious; No they are not some ordinary mushrooms, they are magical mushrooms he said.
Trough the mist I remember few words he said to describe magic mushrooms, ''if you like the taste of normal mushrooms you would like the taste of these, but the taste isn't important at all like the effect is important. They will make you feel like you never felt before, finally you will be able to go beyond your imagination.''
I never liked any sort of drugs, neither I do now, I was a bit in panic, and I yelled at him, what the hell, I'm not going to take ''magical'' mushrooms, I don't want to feel like I never felt in my life, days like this I have only once in a year, so I'm already feel really good.
After that we were arguing and after half a hour, or a hour can't remember really I decide to give it a try. We sat on a couch and split magical mushrooms in two part, as far as my memory servers me it was 2 grams of mushrooms for me , and 2 grams for him.
Okey at that moment I felt jitters, I could even feel butterflies in my stomach like when I was a little child. I was really nervous.
I started eating them,the taste was really bad ,but eatable. I ate 2 grams in 10 minutes or less. And then I was like , '' okey, I'm waiting for an aliens and nlo '' , it was obviously a sarcastic declaration.
Forty minute have passed and I was still not felling anything, especially a little nausea.
It was usually because the shrooms was crude.
I said, I knew it wont work, except it's not working I feel this unnecessary nausea.. My friend with smile on his face answered, just wait few more minutes. He was right, 10 minutes later I began to feel strange sensations, my mood were changing, I could feel my inner self.
Because we have similar taste in music, I suggest him to play music on his own, so he did, I remember Kinks on playing list, it was one of the best moments in my entire life, I closed my eyes and I could barely feel every note, I can somehow connect with music, it was so deep and unreal..
As time went the shrooms were just stronger and stronger, I opened my eyes and on my suprise everything was different, I was scared and amazed at the same moments, the colors were alive, I had a felling like room is talking to me, and indeed I started talking with a room. And I had a felling like room was my tutor then, he/she learned me what am I capable to do on mushrooms, and I really tripped like it was true.
Two hour later was the strongest, I started to feel so many things at the same time, loneliness, excitement, happiness, sadness, joy, fear, anger, curiosity, closeness... My body and my 'soul' were separated and I observed that, I was somewhere in the universe, I felt innocent and pure , I felt like I'm the only person in the entire cosmos. I could somehow look back in the history, I was observing everything , from hommosappiens, medieval ages to modern ages, I could observe every important thing in our History.
3 hour later I had laughing attack, I was laughing to everything I see, or to everything I hear.. I thought If I stop laughing my body will stop working and it will freeze. I was laughing for almost full hour. And suddenly after that laugh I felt a profound silence. Couldn't hear anything or feel anything for a half hour, and I thing this part was the most beneficial for me. I fight my real problems there, I searched for solutions and for answers, I found many answers which helps me even now.
The whole trip last for 4-5 hours. After 5 hours my friend wanted to ask me something, I remember I just said we will talk later, rest day I thinking about what happened. I remember that day I had the best dream ever. And day tomorrow I was the happiest person in the entire world.
That was 2 years ago, I never before took any psychedelic supstance neither I took it never after that.
But I will never regret taking it.
P.S It was the longest journey I have ever had.
P.S.S Although I am in process of learning English, it would be my pleasure if someone can correct my mistakes, and give me a mark for this short essay. Have in mind, that I'm not a native speaker, and I have never been in country where English is major language. |
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 DarkEdition
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